Like an automaton

Sometimes things are too ephemeral. They erase before you could feel them deeply. 

Today I saw the joy in their faces.They where so near but so far away. Smiling faces,tender embraces.The serenity of someone who had found the path. I felt so lost,so stupid for thinking I could be one of them.

I was an spectator sitting in the unconfortable chair of an old cinema watching a film scene. An invisible barrier separated us.They where the fortunate  ones. I was the fallen one.Lost hope again.

The child was looking at me.He tried to hide himself. I felt so cold. Mi nerves paralized. I  was unable to articulate any sweet word  for the little child.Just like an automaton.